Give Thanks

Out of coincidence, I just clicked onto my starlite hotmail a/c and checked my mail. FYI, I’ve long abandoned this mail and migrated to another email add and the sole purpose of tt email is only to maintain my MSN account.

Then i chanced upon a email message with the topic =) and i opened it.

The rest is pretty personal so I’ll not elaborate further. But I’d really like to give thanks for everyone and anyone who talked to me,dropped me lil’ smses, made me laugh wholeheartedly and also the ones who drop by my blog as a silent reader but still care for me in a genuine way.

Simply being an individual, I know my flaws were so bad to be covered but I am really cleaning it up so well because I had not only the strength of myself but I seeked strength from so many of you. You’ve all boosted my growth and also made me move in a comforting way.

It is because sometimes when friends do call and tell me things, it’s then I found out that I am happy. No only happy for myself, but happy for the both.

It’s better to seek for my own horizon and figure out what I want before dragging anyone else down with me.

"You deserve a day where worries don’t get in the way of anything.  A day where even if some people are insensitive or unkind, you’re not going to mind because the blessings in your life are far, far better than the burdens. Don’t let a single thing rain on your parade"

The blessings I’ve received is more than I am suppose to deserve for, I am grateful&thankful for being able to step into life wearing a better and comfortable shoe,so that I can pace the next phrase without wearing out so soon :)

Busy like a BIG FAT BEE

If i was a lazy girl all my life and i grew fatter in return as retribution,

It’s really the time I should shed off all the excess now!

I need not emphasize how all the workload is killing me softly. Subconsciously work has filled all my mind. Weekends are spent with self-discipline at home, sitting on the sofa like an ass, completing prereg day by day and the pages never seems to dwindle at all.

It’s like why am I working so hard?

Even if there were appointments out, the priority is work. It blanks out all your thoughts and sometimes multi-taking doesn’t work anymore. Everyone wants your attention, the telephone calls never seem to stop after hours.

“hello,michelle speaking” yet, I can so anticipate your next question.

Let’s hope for the glory of a victorious battle, all the struggles and mad pacing are worth it.

FHA08,pls come by like a victory and let me include 80% of you in my 15,000 word report. Thanks to you again the next 3 weeks are burnt badly with OT, working Sat and SUNDAY :’(

Your Answer :)

While pondering I somehow came out with the answer I needed.

“It’s still too early to tell whether you’re ready for the world. You have yet to taste the worst and also the best of humanity let alone initate your help. It’s time to see more, read more and also open up your heart and feel the innocence and harshness of life. Then, you’ll be able to relate in a better way and tell others truth, because you’ve seen it, felt it and also embraced both the emotions.”

I am sure in time to come, I’ll feel better being myself and may the one above use me to fulfill the path he has laid.

Take time to realise you don’t have to live a kick-ass life, a life sitting in a bed of roses always, all life needs is for you to fall because only then you’ll know what’s truth. It’s not a testimonial from others but it’s a value to how much your life is worth.

:)

Better In Time

It’s difficult to live in a complex way, yet it’s deceiving to live a simple life too.

It’s bad to be stucked in something, yet when you lose the habit it catches up with you unknowingly.

It’s good to have opportunities and chances, yet too much of it leaves you contemplating over in cycles.

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It’s tough to value yourself, because eventually you’re just the one other person out of so many living in this world.

I love reading wikipedia from time to time, it tells me more about people yet I’d have never chance upon their picture and achievements. To some, all of those I know are simply of no/zero value.

How can I be of value to others?

Can I hold the faith in me? Can i achieve all within my ablities? Can I conquer all the difficulties?

Even if you’ve achieved all in the world, there’s always this portion of you- Empty.

Aliah dropped by this quote in the morning which I find pretty meaningful:

 

Never say that you have no time. On the whole it is those who are busiest who can make time for yet more, and those who have more leisure time who refuse to do something when asked. What we lack is not time, but heart.

Henri Boulard

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I choose to think that today is just 1 of those Days filled with Uncertainties.

You can ignore my pancake face

Hey Yo!

I am as tired as a fish today.

Out with the girls to Phuture last night till 3am. Dear Daiyan made me get out of home and start queuing for entry at 9.30pm. Damn early but it’s a wise choice as once we were in, there was a cap for the last 6 ladies to enter.

Joined Daiyan and her friends and there was like 11 of us last night. Crazy drinking games and phuture was MASSIVE JAM PACKED.

Was supposed to meet Sharon sis at Phuture but she didn’t manage to get in before they cap. Sorry sis and Xiao Pea! Made you girls come all the way and I didn’t meet up with the both of you. Apologies!

Dearest Girlfriend :)

The Girls!

Stood around Phuture until I managed to catch Elvin around! No pics, regretfully but it was nice meeting you boy :)

 

New found friend, Matthew! Nice guy too.

Rei, the Alien network friend. haha, it was really fun with your pressence.

More Girls!

Cousins with The Absolute Love-Hate Relationship!!

Haha, along the way someone messed up my hair at the dance floor, when I looked up it was quite a pleasant surprise with Mr Clemence Lee!

He was supposed to meet the rest from SES for lunch but we didn’t as all of us were pretty occupied with work. That’s why it was pretty surprising to have met him at Phuture!

Generally i enjoyed the night of with the group, if the crowd wasn’t squeezing like crazy almost every moment, if the songs didn’t take a dip for the worst and if there wasn’t so many weird people standing around like behind me for ages, but doing nothing? It’d have been better!

Oh well, I am sitting in the office doing the usual mundane E Filing of forms and working on the mini show directory currently. Gonna doze off anytime soon.

Okay, That’s all!

You don’t have to know anything, the only thing you must know is that it’s okay to be alone, it’s okay to get used to being alone because it’s an account to yourself that I am a statement of my tomorrow, not anyone else.

Vroom!

After the official 1st practical driving lesson yesterday, I must say I’ve developed this:

 Love-Hate Relationship for Driving.

It was really the 1st time on the road because Daddy brings me to some ulu heavy vehicle carpark for the secret lessons.

And.. it RAINED on my 1st lesson.

My Driving Instructor wasn’t that funny uncle who called me informing the April Fool’s nonsense, but he happened to be my pri school’s classmate dad. Sometimes when I sit down and start thinking about nothing, it’s really weird how time makes things happen. It was at Jocelyn’s Party that I met my pri school friend, and strangely we shared the same birthday.

Well, the instructor was really patient with me. I love the car that I used for my lesson, the clutch wasn’t crazily hard to step on but i “managed” to stall my car 6 Times! (hahaha) Yeah, and I finally tried crusing the car in a traffic Jam. Ai yo, it was like “clutch in” , “gear 1″, “brake” and the cycle repeats.

Terrible, it was terrible. Cars honked at me as my car stalled halfway before a filter lane!

The only love for driving would be telling myself yes you’ll be able to drive independently one day without another pair of eyes staring at your safety all the time.

For the 1st lesson, I really sucked.

HAHA :)

 

Apr Fool

It’s just another regular day for most people but not for Mr Seah Yang Heng.

He popped by my desk this morning and asked me:

YH: “Do you know next week 3 Shatec interns are coming to SES for work”

me: *puzzled* how can it be possible? And i gave him the weird stare and asked, “why”

YH: “Because it’s April Fools what”

My expression was literally ->  -_-”

Only Yang Heng is capable of all these bullshit year after year!

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Okay! I am heading for my first practical driving lesson later in the evening! The Uncle who called me was full of nonsense also.

Uncle: “So we set the lesson on 1st April okay?”

Me: “okay, can”

Uncle:”1st April, April Fool but no fool,no fool ah, must turn up for lesson”

Me” Haha, okay”

Me:”Why we need to start practical lessons so early? I will only pass my Final Theory Test on a later date”

Uncle: “We must see if you gam with the instructor a not what, buay gam how?”

That’s the time when I more or less realise my driving lessons will turn out to be pretty fun afterall :)

Wish me luck! Hoprefully the car wouldn’t stall halfway along the streets of Bukit Batok which I forsee will happen in high probablity.

 

Fufilling Weekends

Was supposed to catch up on all the sleep I missed thru the work week, instead I was involved in:

Outing with Juicy Club for Step Up 2 movie

The show was good. Filled with almost unattainable dance steps coming from the cast and haha! The Male lead was Hot too :)

Saturday was mainly spent watching movie and bro’s friend stayed over at my place so we chit chatted till an ungodly hour of almost 3am.

I crept out of bed on Sunday morning at 8am to BBDC. Sometimes I really wonder where did all my motivation for driving come from. Hmm.

Well, it was a fruitful trip as I’d finally passed my FTT Evaluation! After mad failing all the 11 booklets during Practice sessions, this success is indeed a miracle!

My family then headed for the Qing Ming praying at some mountain at Bishan and Amanda poked my hand with the burning joss stick! My lil’ sis can be a hazard when she has these burning things in hand.

Headed to Thomson’s Dino’s for Lunch and headed home for a fruitful afternoon nap :*)

I realised that there wasn’t any date with my Girls this week!

 Well, the week ahead will be better. Gonna enrol for University today, Starting my very 1st official practical driving lessons!!, happening midweek.

And this is a boring update of how a 19 yr old’s weekend can get!

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Destiny is not a matter of chance,

It is a matter of choice,

It is not a thing to be waited for,

It is a thing to be achieved.

~William J Bryan

 

 

SES Cosmic Bowling Day

SES has a recreation club where members organise outings for SES staff to various places to destress,bond and have fun.

This time round, the recreation club organised a trip to CSC at Tensensohn Rd for Cosmic Bowling night.

Cosmic Bowling: There are dancing lights, hot new music, glow-in-the-dark bowling lanes, pins and bowling balls

 Indeed, cosmic bowling was an eye opener. The music, darkness,lights fufilled the description perfectly!

My Team! Khamis,Me and Eileen :) 

We’re were being spilt into random groups for 2 rounds of Bowling and Glenn’s group emerged as Champions of the night.

After the 2 rounds, we could form our own groups for free&easy bowling time till 9pm. It was crazy bowling with Glenn,Yangheng,Feny,Candy,Rachel and Shiela. Yangheng tried to be funny by bowling from under his legs, Feny threw the ball off both hands etc. Crazy! Was mad bowling,screaming and laughing the whole night that left me with aching arms and legs the next day at work

Not forgetting the BIG SES FAMILY :)

 

 

Morning Dilemmas

To be punctual for work, I am sure everyone has to wake up in the morning at a certain time to catch the bus,train or even when you drive, to skip the madness ERP chrages, you’d have to leave slightly earlier too.

I woke up at the rightful time today but realised at the final 5mins before I stormed out of the house that this weird spasm of stomach cramps came by suddenly – Okay, I needed to relieve the toxins (which is to shit) soon.

Hence, I decided to resolve the issues with stomach aches and great, I missed my bus. At the same time, I realised that it wasn’t just the regular stomach aches but diarrhea.

The intention of this post is just to remind myself how dumb is it to finish 1 whole plate of Sambal Kangkong as my sliblings didn’t like it, and the bestest thing is:

I took a cab to work because I needed the toilet bowl badly @ work yet I didn’t have the excess luxury time to head home.

Seriously, Morning Dilemmas are of a negative form.

(stay tuned! cosmic bowling entry updated soon) :)